hey, psyche

I’ll need courage to do what I’m about to do: to speak. And to risk the enormous surprise at the poverty of what I say. As soon as it’s out of my mouth, I’ll have to add: that’s not it, that’s not it! But I can’t be afraid of looking ridiculous, I always preferred less to more out of fear of looking ridiculous: because there is also a shattering of modesty. I’m putting off having to speak. Out of fear?

And because I don’t have a word to say.

I don’t have a word to say. So why don’t I shut up? But if I don’t force out the words muteness will swallow me forever in waves. Word and form will be the board upon which I float upon billows of muteness.

I don’t have a word to say. Why don’t I just stay quiet, then? But if I don’t force myself to talk, silence will forever engulf me in waves. Word and form will be the plank on top of which I shall float over billows of silence.

Clarice Lispector

Clarice Lispector

Ambos queriam. Ambos desejam. Ninguém tomava uma atitude. Nada acontecia.
Clarice Lispector
Photo by Claudia Andujar

Clarice Lispector

Photo by Claudia Andujar

Putting my hand in someone else’s has always been my definition of happiness. Before I fall asleep, often - in that small struggle not to lose consciousness and go into the greater world - often, before I get up the courage to go into the vastness of sleep, I pretend that someone has my hand in theirs, and then I go, go to that enormous absence of form that is sleep. And when even after that I don’t have courage, I dream.
“Who has not asked himself at some time or other: am I a monster or is this what it means to be a person?” 
― Clarice Lispector, A Hora Da Estrela

“Who has not asked himself at some time or other: am I a monster or is this what it means to be a person?” 

― Clarice Lispector, A Hora Da Estrela